*~* Trapped in My Body *~* (shy_ga_chic) wrote in freetherapy,
*~* Trapped in My Body *~*

*nervously waves* Umm... Hi, I'm new here

Well I don't even know why I decided to join this community. I mean, it's not like anyone gives a flying fuck about my pathetic problems, so I apologize in advance for bothering ya'll... I'll try to keep it as short as possible.


I was born 14 weeks early and developed cerebral palsy. I can walk for very short distances (like out to car and into house) with crutches, but for longer distances I use a manual wheelchair. Other than that, I am mostly "normal." I have all the same desires, wishes, hopes, and dreams as every other 20-year-old girl. I want someone to love me...someone who is not going to treat me like I have always been treated (one of three ways... * like a porcelain doll who is going to break if someone hugs me too tight * like a person who they only care for because they feel obligated to or because they feel sorry for me or * like someone who they wouldn't touch with a ten-foot pole, because they are afraid they can catch my disability).

I still live at home with my parents, because I can't drive yet (I need a van with a wheelchair lift and hand-controls). My parents (especially my mom) are very over-protective - I can't really go anywhere without like 10,000 questions about like "who are you going with?" what will you be doing?" "where are you going?" "when will you be home?" - I can understand being concerned about stuff, but oh my god, I feel like I'm 12!!!! They like to meet all of my friends before I go anywhere with them. If I am going to sleep over at a girl friend's house, my mom is like "do I know the parents?" OMG!!!!!!!

I feel like my life has been way too over-protective... almost like my parents are not letting me make my own decisions and trying to "protect" me from making my own mistakes.

Please don't get me wrong. I love my parents... I really do, and I am sure their hearts are in the right place, but... yea, I don't know.



Oh geez that "short as possible" tag turned out to be kinda long, so I'll shut up now. Sorry it was so long and drawn out.


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